brief notes

i am in the library in redondo beach. got no internet at home. the days are tough, if you let it hit you it would be emotional and sometimes you can but alot of times you can't. the moment isnt right or you got to hold it together in front of a patient and then the moment passes. i had a dream a couple nights ago that the man who was on a vent for so long and who we took off and who died was sitting up and talking to me. and his daughter who sobbed so much and told me a bit about him, he was like that in my dream. and it was kinda wierd because i kept asking him, shit dying aint that bad, huh? you look great and he was laughing. i have never seen this guy remotely alive. just connected to tubes. and i was so excited in my dream.

anyway, i wrote my first death note yesterday on call. an 80 yr old black fiesty woman who was dnr(no cpr), dni(do not intubate), and no pressors it bummed me out a bit but she went quickly.

i met the mayor of LA couple nights ago. very friendly. i finished talking to him and called resh and she gave me a list of things i should have spoken to him about, policies and meetings he should come to and stuff. i felt like i dropped the ball, i am not in a strategy mode and i guess i should be more often. he was in the ER because a cop got shot.

got my vacation schedule. 2 weeks in oct. thinking i might climb mount whitney or go to yosemite. maybe sit for 10 days if the dates coincide. we'll see

writing an essay on india and the tibetan refugee camp. reading maxine hong kingston- she is off the hook.

anyway, i get my first pay check friday. i am taking the family out to dinner. 10 folks. got to find a good restaurant.


sri